Runa is getting put forward for a seating assessment, which will provide her with a very large, structured floor seat. She is coming up to her first birthday and her sitting isn’t where the physiotherapist would have hoped it would be, so more support is appropriate.
Me and the physio had a rather frank discussion about what we can expect over the next year for Runa.
A standing frame to support her hip development and avoid potential dislocation and encourage weight bearing.
An adapted, structured buggy to support her to sit properly whist protecting against scoliosis.
Towards the end of the year, a walker to encourage… well, walking.
Over the next few years if Runa is not going to be a walking child we will start looking into wheelchairs etc.
This brought some difficult thoughts and feelings to the forefront of my mind. I knew this was all coming, I knew this was what we could expect, but it has been quite painful… Pulling the thoughts floating about in the back of my mind and forcing them out of my mouth during a conversation… The reality of Runa’s future is rarely easy to take.
Runa can sit briefly and play with toys in front of her, but her back is very rounded and she does not have the core strength or coordination to stop herself falling over.
Runa can weight bear for all of a few seconds before she gives up.
In my personal opinion, over the past year Runa has met the developmental equivalent of a 4 month old. I feel we will be very lucky if she meets the developmental stage of an 8 month old by her second birthday.
It isn’t a nice thought really, but since diagnosis there has been too much uncertainty and now I feel like we have at least a little more clarity over what to expect.
We can expect continued, slow development and we can expect a lot of physio and occupational therapy equipment. We can also likely expect that Runa will not learn how to walk.
None of this means that I will be giving up. Runa is fantastic, unique and a genuine joy to spend time with. I will continue to work her hard with her physio and give her every opportunity available to develop her skills. She has surprised everyone so far, there could be many more surprises up her sleeve.
The reality facing our future brings a lump to my throat, and in the interest of being kind to myself, I am allowing time for some wallowing in self pity.
But the reality of the present is so much more important. Both of my beautiful daughters need me to face the world head on with them and believe they are capable of incredible things.